Messing around with some of my photos today... thought this one turned out rather cool.
14.4.10
12.4.10
A Thought
I haven't posted on my blog in forever... I don't particularly know why. I think my life just got so crazy... I was struggling just to keep my head above water for so long that I didn't have time to think about blogging. BUT my life is a bit more under control now... Maybe because I figured out that I don't have to be the one controlling it =]
I've learned so many lessons about peace and joy and trust... about love, about living in Abba's hand.
And I hope to continue learning the lessons I've started to learn.
I've learned about being still, and knowing He is God... That's tough for me, because I like to be in control and to Fix things.
I've learned about trust, and knowing He is Good... another hard one because I like to figure things out myself and make things turn out ok.
I've learned about following Him, not others... that sounds easy, but is difficult to see at times. I am not living for others. I am living to respond to Abba and to show His love to others. Whether they choose to respond to Abba is between them and Him... I can't live to make sure they respond. If I do, I will lose myself in the process of trying to make them be something they aren't and don't want to be.
I've learned that I am not invincible... sounds obvious, but for some reason I had this vague notion that I, Danielle Schmelzenbach, was impervious to all the problems of the Little People. =]
I've learned that I am not perfect... another seemingly obvious, I think I just needed it strongly proven to me. =]
I've learned that I am perfect... uh, wait a minute, Danielle, you just said... yeah I know what I just said. Roll with me here. I've learned that I am most certainly not perfect. I've also learned that I am being perfected by my Abba and although I am most certainly human, the journey I am on is a perfect one, one that ends in and leads through holiness and Abba.
I've learned about breathing... stopping, letting go for a while, and just breathing. Not needing to constantly figure everything out. Not needing to constantly fix everything and everyone. Not needing to fight for my life. But just breathing.
I've learned a lot more, but that's enough for now. Hopefully I can start posting a bit more often. =]
I've learned so many lessons about peace and joy and trust... about love, about living in Abba's hand.
And I hope to continue learning the lessons I've started to learn.
I've learned about being still, and knowing He is God... That's tough for me, because I like to be in control and to Fix things.
I've learned about trust, and knowing He is Good... another hard one because I like to figure things out myself and make things turn out ok.
I've learned about following Him, not others... that sounds easy, but is difficult to see at times. I am not living for others. I am living to respond to Abba and to show His love to others. Whether they choose to respond to Abba is between them and Him... I can't live to make sure they respond. If I do, I will lose myself in the process of trying to make them be something they aren't and don't want to be.
I've learned that I am not invincible... sounds obvious, but for some reason I had this vague notion that I, Danielle Schmelzenbach, was impervious to all the problems of the Little People. =]
I've learned that I am not perfect... another seemingly obvious, I think I just needed it strongly proven to me. =]
I've learned that I am perfect... uh, wait a minute, Danielle, you just said... yeah I know what I just said. Roll with me here. I've learned that I am most certainly not perfect. I've also learned that I am being perfected by my Abba and although I am most certainly human, the journey I am on is a perfect one, one that ends in and leads through holiness and Abba.
I've learned about breathing... stopping, letting go for a while, and just breathing. Not needing to constantly figure everything out. Not needing to constantly fix everything and everyone. Not needing to fight for my life. But just breathing.
I've learned a lot more, but that's enough for now. Hopefully I can start posting a bit more often. =]
18.12.09
Firsts...
Well, hello, blog, I haven't been to you in a while.
So I'm heading home for Christmas, with a whole pile of "firsts" out of the way now. What firsts, you say? well...
My first time in a classroom (yes, I was homeschool K-12)
My first lab class
My first time living away from home
My first new country without my family
My first dorm room
My first roommate (yeah she's pretty awesome)
My first boyfriend
My first breakup
My first time ice skating (yes I looked like an idiot and enjoyed every minute of it)
My first time playing Halo =]
My first time playing guitar hero (ok, so it helps if you know the songs before you start singing)
My first awesome prof
My first terribly annoying prof
My first voice juries... bleh
My first time eating... whatever that stuff was at the cafeteria. Pretty sure I've never seen it's equal before anywhere on earth.
...well, and many more.
I'd say this has been a rather amazing first semester at college, I've learned a lot... most of it not in the classroom. I'm very ready to go home, but I'm aware that I'll be very ready to come back and hit the ground running next semester as well. I didn't fail my first semester of classes... I don't think... but then again, I don't have my final chemistry grade yet, do I.
We'll call this semester a good first try. ... now for my first visit home for Christmas!
So I'm heading home for Christmas, with a whole pile of "firsts" out of the way now. What firsts, you say? well...
My first time in a classroom (yes, I was homeschool K-12)
My first lab class
My first time living away from home
My first new country without my family
My first dorm room
My first roommate (yeah she's pretty awesome)
My first boyfriend
My first breakup
My first time ice skating (yes I looked like an idiot and enjoyed every minute of it)
My first time playing Halo =]
My first time playing guitar hero (ok, so it helps if you know the songs before you start singing)
My first awesome prof
My first terribly annoying prof
My first voice juries... bleh
My first time eating... whatever that stuff was at the cafeteria. Pretty sure I've never seen it's equal before anywhere on earth.
...well, and many more.
I'd say this has been a rather amazing first semester at college, I've learned a lot... most of it not in the classroom. I'm very ready to go home, but I'm aware that I'll be very ready to come back and hit the ground running next semester as well. I didn't fail my first semester of classes... I don't think... but then again, I don't have my final chemistry grade yet, do I.
We'll call this semester a good first try. ... now for my first visit home for Christmas!
26.11.09
Things I'm Thankful For
Too many things to list them all... so we'll just go with 10 random things.
1. I'm thankful for mom and dad, whose wisdom I appreciate more every day.
2. My friends who care about me and don't care when I don't know what's going on as I adjust to life in the states.
3. My awesome boyfriend, who not only puts up with my craziness, but matches it with his own.
4.My family here in the states who make sure that I don't have any excuse to feel lonely or not-cared for.
5. Cuddly dogs, such as Harry the Shi Tsu and Ozzie the Schnauzer.
6. Pecan pie and ice cream
7. coffee!
8. 80% cocoa dark chocolate
9. Random trips to a restaurant with Bree (my neighbor) when we get tired of sedexo (the school cafeteria)
10. All the myriad of things that God has given me that make my life amazing.
the end.
1. I'm thankful for mom and dad, whose wisdom I appreciate more every day.
2. My friends who care about me and don't care when I don't know what's going on as I adjust to life in the states.
3. My awesome boyfriend, who not only puts up with my craziness, but matches it with his own.
4.My family here in the states who make sure that I don't have any excuse to feel lonely or not-cared for.
5. Cuddly dogs, such as Harry the Shi Tsu and Ozzie the Schnauzer.
6. Pecan pie and ice cream
7. coffee!
8. 80% cocoa dark chocolate
9. Random trips to a restaurant with Bree (my neighbor) when we get tired of sedexo (the school cafeteria)
10. All the myriad of things that God has given me that make my life amazing.
the end.
28.10.09
My Favorite Things
These are things that make me happy...
Quietly reading a good book in the same room as good friends.
Eating a small piece of 80% cocoa chocolate very very slowly.
Walking in warm sunshine when the sun in just about to start setting.
Listening to music turned up too loudly.
Drinking a cup of very strong coffee.
Hugging a friend very tightly.
Laughing till it hurts.
Being tickled while I scream at the top of my lungs.
Feeling my phone buzz with a text message.
Playing the piano fast and loudly until I can't hear anything else and I can feel the music vibrating the whole room.
Falling asleep slowly under a warm blanket.
Hearing my neighbor scream my name from the other side of the hall.
Waking up and realizing I don't have to get up.
Taking a really long really hot shower.
The alternating hot-cold breeze that smells like sea salt that comes off a tropical beach.
Drinking a fresh green coconut.
Innertubing down the river behind Kudjip mission station.
Stepping on a dry acorn.
Watching a friend's face light up in laughter.
Speaking in a random language with someone who understands.
Drinking hot apple cider.
Telling someone exactly why I like them.
Being told exactly why someone likes me.
Singing at the top of my lungs.
Standing at the top of an Oregon cliff and looking out at the Northwest Pacific coast.
Having a completely random conversation that makes absolutely no sense to anyone but to those of use having it, while laughing so hard I can barely breathe.
Well, that's enough for now. Maybe I'll write more of these later. The song is right... it does make me feel happy to think of my favorite things!!! =]
Quietly reading a good book in the same room as good friends.
Eating a small piece of 80% cocoa chocolate very very slowly.
Walking in warm sunshine when the sun in just about to start setting.
Listening to music turned up too loudly.
Drinking a cup of very strong coffee.
Hugging a friend very tightly.
Laughing till it hurts.
Being tickled while I scream at the top of my lungs.
Feeling my phone buzz with a text message.
Playing the piano fast and loudly until I can't hear anything else and I can feel the music vibrating the whole room.
Falling asleep slowly under a warm blanket.
Hearing my neighbor scream my name from the other side of the hall.
Waking up and realizing I don't have to get up.
Taking a really long really hot shower.
The alternating hot-cold breeze that smells like sea salt that comes off a tropical beach.
Drinking a fresh green coconut.
Innertubing down the river behind Kudjip mission station.
Stepping on a dry acorn.
Watching a friend's face light up in laughter.
Speaking in a random language with someone who understands.
Drinking hot apple cider.
Telling someone exactly why I like them.
Being told exactly why someone likes me.
Singing at the top of my lungs.
Standing at the top of an Oregon cliff and looking out at the Northwest Pacific coast.
Having a completely random conversation that makes absolutely no sense to anyone but to those of use having it, while laughing so hard I can barely breathe.
Well, that's enough for now. Maybe I'll write more of these later. The song is right... it does make me feel happy to think of my favorite things!!! =]
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